I was wrong.
Today and yesterday, and the day before, and probably tomorrow, are the reason I hated my younger teenage years. I thought I had outgrown it. I thought that my mom wasn't struggling anymore. I thought my sister didn't hate the world. I thought the darkness that ran through my veins all those years ago was gone. I was wrong. I can look into my mother's eyes and see a stranger. She is not the same person that raised me. I look at my sister and don't even recognize who she has become. She's quiet and secluded. She doesn't stand outside my door anymore and ask to do crafts. I look in the mirror and I see myself, or maybe my mind is just playing tricks on me. I didn't miss the pain I felt all those years ago. I surely didn't ask for it. I suppose not everyone can always be happy all the time. It sounds a lot nicer than how I feel right now though. 06/07/2018